Reading slowly through the Psalms in these days. Up to #56.
This morning Psalm 55 particularly spoke to me to adjust some operational processes.
1. Sometimes I think: If I am really walking close, everything should be going just fine.
Instead: the Psalmist's words - King David, by the way:
:2 - restless, moaning
:3 - oppressed, deeply troubled, grudge-bearing
:4 - anguish within, terrors of death, fear and trembling, horror
:12 - taunts, insolence
:13 - friends who now bear me evil...and memories that deepen pain
2. Lots of times I act like: Prayers need to be polite, reverent, carefully expressed.
The Psalmist's prayer focuses:
:1 - give ear, God
:2 - I have a complaint
:17 - continually I complain and moan
:15 - let death steal over my enemies, humble them
:9 - destroy, O Lord, divide their tongues
3. By my actual praying, I often bely that: I am not sure that prayer is efffective.
:16 - the Lord ill save me
:17-18 - He hears and He redeems
4. Not sure what to do now about all of this?
:22 - Cast your burden on the Lord, and he will sustain you.
:16 - call out to the Lord and He will save you
:23 - trust entirely in God
Enough then of our pious, controlled, and abbreviated praying...especially when we are in a valley.
Oh God, you can handle our deep emotions and doubts.
May we truly cast our burdens on You, calling out fervently to You and trusting entirely in You.